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On needles and pain

Yesterday, I went to visit a skin clinic because of some irritation. I’ve been in pain since the weekend but because of Buddha’s birthday holiday I had to suffer more. Can’t wait for my appointment since my tolerance to pain is quite low, and I couldn’t take it anymore.

So there, I went to the clinic on time. But I had to wait few more minutes, because I found out, they had to call the interpreter. So she accompanied me to the doctor, translated everything the doctor said. Everything seemed fine until the interpreter said the deadly words “they will give you an injection”. My eyes grew big and my heart beat tripled, in my mind I just told to myself “I’m dead huhuhu”.

Yes, I am afraid of hypodermic needles. I remember blaming a clueless friend for asking me to see the doctor when I wasn’t feeling well because I was injected (and it was painful) that day. Yesterday, I had no one to blame but my skin for being irritated. 😀

Evidence of overcoming my fear! 

While I was lying on the bed, painfully waiting until the medicine is completely in my system, I realized that my fear of needles is a simple manifestation of humanity’s resistance to pain.

No one wants to be in pain or suffer. All of us want a good life. Next to fighting a disease, I often witness pain in the form of being heartbroken. Emotional pain. People get really devastated; some people lose or gain weight; some people transform after a bad break-up. They say it is really painful. I am NBSB so I couldn’t relate. I am just thankful I haven’t experience any of those (and I am praying and believing that it will be possible to fall in love without passing through that heartbroken stage).

They say that the pain of the needle on your skin is just like a bite of an ant. It means that it is nothing compared to all the pain and hardships some people experience. I know that in real world there will be a lot of “painful” moments that might come, those that are maybe beyond my tolerance.

Yet I am secured, that no matter what happens, my God will be my refuge in time of need. And I don’t have to be afraid of those moments because Jesus, My Savior, had already died for me, bearing the pain that no one of us can, for me to have a life to the full.

“Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God,  stricken by him, and afflicted.  But he was pierced for our transgressions,  he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.” –Isaiah 53:4-5

Start the year with a BANG!

New Year’s Day is such a big day for dreamers like me. It is the time of the year when I can look back and see what I was able to achieve, and look forward for the new goals I can reach. This day, I can realize how faithful God is in my life, fulfilling every desire of my heart.

I can say that 2011 was my year. It was the time of being right on track again, after all that happened the previous year. Though I do not regret anything in the past, it is inevitable that there were moments I wished never happened. But then I realized, if those events didn’t occur, I would not be here right now.

Great things happened last 2011! And I am expectant for greater things this 2012! But before completing my faith goals, I want to change how I manage my time. This year, I would be wiser on where to invest my time and effort. In 2012, I would:

1. Invest more time on relationships

The most important relationship I have is with God. I want more quality time with God, seeking him more every single day. I would also spend more time with my family. A once a week bonding/leisure time wouldn’t hurt. And also more UBE with my beloved friends.

2. Invest more on things that would make me beautiful INSIDE.

I have been spending a lot on clothes and shoes. This year, I would cut expenses on such, and will invest on material things than can help me grow. What are those? I will make a habit of “Saturday is ME day”, reading books every Saturday in a coffee shop. I will also listen more to podcasts and video lectures. When I get back, I am planning to enrol in short courses on photography or events management. I will watch more movies (yeah, they help us grow too). I will TRAVEL more!

3. Invest more on my advocacies

I am praying to have a job that’s working on one of my advocacies. If that won’t happen, I will make a way on how to help others in my simple ways. I need to be functional with my skills and talents, transforming them into actions that can help other people!

I am sharing this because you may have suggestions on how to fully accomplish this. I know these are simple, but really they will contribute on my personal growth. What about you, where do you want to invest your time and effort this 2012?



My first Christmas away from home

The title says it all. It was my first ever Christmas without my mom’s really delicious spaghetti on the table, or my brothers’ gifts, and my dad’s jokes. I never imagined that I would spend Christmas 2011 in a foreign land. But that did not make it less of a celebration. I had fun. That’s even an understatement.

I can say that my Christmas celebration started on the 23rd. My classmates Vimala (Indonesia), Phouangmany (Laos) and Mili ( Fiji) wanted to have a special dinner by cooking at our dorm kitchen! So we prepared our dinner. Actually I just “cooked” (okay, I just heated) sisig-in-can and Argentina corned beef,  while they prepared fried rice and fried tofu. The dinner was special because there’s love in preparing it. 😀

After the dinner, we stayed in Phouangmany’s room, to teach them how to use torrent in downloading. Then we noticed that there was snow! Upon looking outside, we saw that the roads were already white! The next step? We ran outside and had our pictures taken! It was the first heavy snow we experienced in Seoul!

Then, we had a chick flick movie marathon, welcoming Mili’s birthday! Movie watching is really fun if you are with friends who laugh with you.

On December 24th, we decided to have a buffet dinner. But we just learned that was almost impossible because of too many Koreans waiting in line at family restaurants. We ended up in the foodcourt and had  Korean food instead. We celebrated our good friend Mili’s birthday! Thank you Lord for her life.

While some of my friends decided to welcome Christmas at the bar, I headed to Kuya Cass’ house for our Pinoy Noche Buena! I’m really glad he cooks, that’s why I am able to eat Filipino food while here at Seoul. So they prepared food for the Christmas eve. What was in our table? Paella, morcon, hamonado, dinuguan at puto, biko,  lumpiang shanghai, and my favourite tinola!!!

The sumptuous dinner made us feel it is really Christmas (hahaha! :D).  And after the Noche Buena, it was fun time! We exercised our minds with the game Pinoy Henyo.  I actually played hard because the consequence of losing was washing dishes. So if you don’t want to wash the dishes, just play it and make sure you win. We’re all girls in the team, so the result is quite expected. Yes, we won. 😀 I went home around 2am with joy in my heart.

I spent Christmas day at EN Church of Korea. It was a joint service, both in Korean and English. After the Christmas preaching, we had lunch and Christmas party. It was my first time to play “white Elephant” in exchanging gifts! My gift was stolen once but I was able to get a cute thermos! 🙂 I am thankful for my spiritual family here in Seoul.

I forgot to mention that I called my family back home who’s celebrating Christmas without me for the first time. But they had a great day as well.

I did not receive expensive gifts this Christmas, but I am surrounded by people who are God’s gift to me. They are making my life easier here. And they are gifts that are for keeps. Can’t thank God enough for them.

I don’t actually need to look under the Christmas tree to seek for gifts. I already received the greatest gift, the Child who was born in a manger 2000 years ago. He changed my life. He will change your life.

She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins. – Matthew 1:21

Here I am, AGAIN.

Blogging is not new to me. I created a blogger account back in 2006 for myself. From time to time I got to update it. Then Friendster blogger came. But the height of my blogging (career?) was not to blog about my personal experiences, but to use the power of internet to work on my advocacy for young girls and young women. I started the fun blog for the Girl Scouts of the Philippines back in 2007. It became a personal project and is still on the web. My personal whatnots are only posted on my social networking sites, Multiply, Facebook and Tumblr.

My first job description was actually a  New Media Writer. That’s a powerful combo. But I didn’t own a personal space for myself in the Internet.

Then what motivated me to start this blog (and decided to continue updating it)?

First is that I am now here in South Korea. I am blessed to be in this wonderful country. And I get to experience a lot on my free time. Graduate school is tough, and I think I will also need a breather from the nosebleed Economics readings and gruelling exams. And a big factor here is I have a really fast Internet connection, which makes blogging a hassle-free hobby.

Second thing is that I’ve got a lot of friends to support me. This blog is actually a product of various minds. I love how this whole thing was conceived by a suggestion of Ate Evita in Twitter, then my two super friends Michelle and Michelle (isn’t it cool when your bestfriends have the same name as yours?) supporte d my newest endeavour (as always!). In one cold night friend Rhan and I brainstormed via Skype for the blog name and tagline, and other stuff.  Then I realized I know some geek guys who are experts in computer stuff, Markdhel and Amir. See, when you want to achieve something, the universe actually conspire to make things easy for you.

Lastly, I want to keep track on how close am I to my dreams. Yes, I am such a dreamer. Every experience I have is the convergence of my dreams and reality. I want to share how I live each eventful day, and what I am learning from this big classroom called life. I also want you to know how faithful God is, in fulfilling all those dreams he instilled in my heart. And someday, I want to have something to show to my grandchildren when I am already a ‘lola techie.’


 Time is running out fast, and I am one day closer to my dreams.